Do You Look Like Who You Say You Are?

Have you ever run into someone and not recognize them, or you recognize them but can’t figure out who they are or where you know them from?  Often times it is because you see the person out of context; in a place you don’t normally see him or her, perhaps dressed differently than when you normally see them.  Perhaps you aren’t really paying much attention to the people around you.  Does the person actually look different, or do we see them differently, or is it both.  Both because we are all a complexity of the things we do, the experiences we have, the emotions we are feeling and so many more things that influence the way we look.

I find it interesting how we are told to be our authentic self.  It is as if we are inclined to present someone we are not, or maybe pretending to be someone or something we are not; perhaps wearing a mask, disguising ourselves.  Hmmm… How is it people can’t see through that?  I am a product of my genetics, a product of my experiences good and bad, and a product of my thoughts.  I suppose in the aspect of being a product of my thoughts I may not be who I say I am.  Consider my post I AM An Athlete.

A good many years ago, gathered around a fire at the neighbour’s house with a bunch of other people (having planned to go for a long bike ride in the morning with the hosts of the party), my neighbour and I joked that we needed to eat the chips that were going by because “we are athletes and need to bulk up for the ride”.  It is a common thing to carb up when you are about to embark on a particularly gruelling event the next day, usually by way of pasta, not party snacks.  At any rate, we laughed and laughed and “I am an Athlete” became the thing to say for just about anything.  What she didn’t know until I talked to her about that post, is that I started saying it elsewhere as well.  When asked at the grocery store if I needed help out, my reply was a quick, “No thanks, I’m an athlete, I can do it”.  I simply smile at the thought of it because I wonder (but don’t really want to know) if they think I am some kind of nutball for saying that.  I do it because I find it amusing, but also out of habit. Such a habit that when I have to lift something heavy or do some gruelling task, I tell myself the same thing.

We get in the habit of saying things to ourselves that may be destructive to our well-being.  I could never do that.  I am not good at that. I am too young to do that/I am too old for that.  I don’t like that.  I don’t want to get hurt.  I don’t want to start and not carry through.  I am not smart enough.  I am too heavy/big/fat.  I am too out of shape.  I am not good looking enough or just not good enough.  Interestingly, most of us trust ourselves more than anyone else and we believe what we tell ourselves.  We start to look like the person we see ourself as.

Despite our misgivings about ourselves, a friend will tell you of your beauty, encourage you when you are down.  They know you deeper than the surface.  Have you ever noticed on days when you are feeling especially happy, people tend to look at you and smile.  They see that beauty in you.  You are beautiful!

On the other hand, people make quick judgements about who we are based on our looks, things they have heard about us or things we say to them.  When you go to a work function and someone asks what you do for a living, your answer will earn you a nice little box in the eyes of the person.  If you have a piece of paper in the form of a degree, people look at you just a little different than if you are a high school drop out.  If you have a conversation over breakfast with a group of people brought together through blogging, they may have an image of you based on what you have written in your blog, but if the question of religion comes up, your answer will determine the box you are put in according to their preconceived ideas of what that religion entails.

Despite all the sports I play, I like to have my nails done.  I get gel nails and I get them done really short because of the sports I play.  I like the feeling of having a reinforced surface of protection for my nails.  I like that they look nice.  I went to a new nail tech; it was my first time meeting her and in my instructions for my nails talked about the sports I do.  Later in the appointment, she commented that I don’t look like someone who does all the sports and activities I do.  I was a little taken aback and assumed (incorrectly) that it was because of my size.  I am a little heavy, but because of my preconceived ideas of what an athlete looks like I don’t look the correct size and shape of someone who does so many activities.  She told me that it was because she saw me as looking very businesslike.

It is always interesting to hear what people think of us.  Okay, maybe just sometimes.  Of course we worry that what others think of us is negative, unflattering or bad, when usually it’s not the case at all…they don’t give us a second thought.  Most of the time what people think of us has nothing to do with us, but everything with to do with the other person’s world view.  Knowing this, does it really matter what image we present? Even if we are wearing a mask, pretending to be someone we aren’t or faking it until we make it, does it matter? People would still be seen through the lenses and preconceived ideas of the viewer. Some people see through the mask, but they still don’t see the real person, but the mask they perceive.

Here is an amazing video of how a person can see you differently based on the information given.  The photographers are all given different information on this person and told to capture that in the photos of him.  It is striking how different the photos look and is a great example of how people might see us differently given different information.

Ultimately, I believe we need to be conscientious and responsible in presenting ourselves honestly, not purposely misleading people.  That is being true to who you are.  If you are working on being a happy person, yet feeling down, I believe fooling yourself for a moment by smiling big in the mirror is a healthy choice.  Telling yourself you are a happy person is better than wallowing in sadness as long as you stay away of the line between changing your habits and denial; sometimes there is a fine line.  That is where you are true to yourself.  Time to go out and be your best you or better yet, the best you, you want to be.


I AM An Athlete

Six months ago, a friend suggested I make a fb page so people could follow our journey cycling across Canada (in stages).  I didn’t make one at the time, but posted updates on my personal page so my friends were able to follow our progress.  When I decided to make a fb page in conjunction with starting my schooling to become a personal trainer, I decided to make a blog as well.  I wanted to make sure the names were the same or similar so i started investigating the blog set-up first.  If any of you visited my blog last week you probably saw little to nothing as I slowly navigated my way through set up.  I then had the task of setting up the fb page, which was also new to me and something I kept putting off because I couldn’t find the ‘label’ that fit me.  I decided to go with ‘Athlete’ in the public people area.  Wow, that seemed like such a reach.  Unless a person is actually good at something, are they really called an athlete?  I would venture a guess there are people who are good at something that won’t even call themselves an athlete.

Yet…that’s what I chose and then got a knot in my stomach.  What if someone finds out I am a hack?  Just because some of my friends call me Marathon Barbie, doesn’t make me an athlete.  Who am I trying to kid? I don’t even look like an athlete; I have soft spots and sometimes I don’t even wear the proper clothes.  What if someone sees me eat something they believe is unhealthy? Am I just fooling myself? I didn’t ask all those questions in the time my life was flashing before my eyes when I hit that button, but my stomach reacted to all those doubts over the years that seem to come out the moment you proclaim something.  Fortunately, I had to write that little ‘about’ statement next, so thinking on the fly, I came up with:

There is an athlete in all of us. Sometimes we need someone to lead the way or introduce us to something new. Each day is a new day to get moving.”

That’s what it’s really about.  It is about moving daily.  It is about starting each day as a new day, forgetting what we didn’t do to the best of our ability the day before.  It’s about stretching ourselves in new ways, mentally, physically, emotionally…and just growing because that is where we feel fulfillment and we aren’t getting out of here alive, so why not?

So what defines me as an athlete?  It comes down to what I believe about me.  I play sports, I am active, I have pushed myself beyond what I thought possible. I have exhausted myself physically to that point of hitting the wall and emotional breakdown. I have had victories, and failures; I have succeeded and I have fallen… and I have gotten up and carried on.  I am my biggest competitor (except, occasionally, for that one friend) and my biggest critic.  Calling myself an athlete allows me to be my biggest supporter as well.  When it comes right down to it, each of us needs to be our own biggest supporter to become our best selves.  So go ahead, call yourself an athlete and make it happen.